It has been a ROUGH week for this girl!
We lost a friend's Mother, which is so sad.
We lost a tooth, well my six year old did. (the tooth fairy came last night and can you believe that she did NOT leave a sparkly dollar like she did with the first tooth lost? The nerve!)
And my full time position has shifted to a part-time position.
SAY WHAT?
Ouch is all I have to say.
I mean, look around Old Gray Gables...We have A TON left to do and on half of my salary...it's scary.
The Laundry Room- in progress! |
I was blind sided. I mean, I have this position, it is not necessarily where I want to be...as in Long-Term...but it is from Home (perk) and I am seeing...KINDA...my kids grow up. If I go back out into the "real world" I feel like I am going to miss everything.
Hubby's initial reaction...
'Well finish that Medical Coding program and GET A FULL TIME JOB." He obviously lacks my vision here. He is not seeing that our kids only have us....and if he takes on the role he previously had...as in when I worked outside of the home, of getting kids up and off, cutting into his sleep schedule...we are back to a ZOMBIE lifestyle that we were in not long ago. (Ugh...just nine short months to be exact)
But, I know that taking a pay cut means the "good life" is on HOLD. No more splurges on arts and crafts...no more buying a book because I so want to read it...no more getting Hubby that special treat because I know he likes it...
Nope..Nu uh...Those days....my friend...are OVER.
We are on a BUDGET. A tight one too! It is a coupon Monday for this little lady. It is...a well calculated LIST at the store. It is a life without EXTRAS cause them bills need to get paid and they won't pay themselves...
But a part-time position sounds intriguing to me.
I mean, I have held this family up for...well...the duration of my life with Hubby. I have always worked. I mean always! I worked up until the day I gave birth to both of my girls, then took the allotted six weeks to return the VERY day I was to go back with no exception. I speak the truth.
Now I get to imagine...even if for a SHORT time...a 20 hour a week work life with Friday's OFF?
Sounds SO amazing!
But, again, it will be short lived. I will HAVE to get back out into the "real world" even though I know I will be kicking and screaming.
Resentment will BE HAD, that much I am sure of!
It is hard to digest from Hubby's perspective also. He believes VERY strongly that my BUTT is to WORK. This angers me, greatly! Sorry, but not sorry!
I just want a BREAK. I strongly believe GOD has the higher power here. There is a path that I am supposed to find and this is what this means.
SUBJECT CHANGE...
So, speaking of God, I did something CRAZY. (yes, think Anna and Hans! I am totally dancing around here!) I seriously certified to be an Ordained Minister.
Wait...What?
Who in God's Name does this?
Uh um-mm...this GIRL.
Yes, I am marrying my Brother and his Partner...if Ohio would get on BOARD.
Whoo hoo.
I can even start a church online.
What?
I know nothing of the bible, let's just be clear on that note. But, how exciting, right.
I can marry people.
That is amazing. I love weddings. (Yes, I am still in ANNA mode!)
BTW I have not broken the news to him yet...I wonder how he will take it?
Happy Friday all!
The Sunrise this morning! "Let the brightness of the sun shine light upon a new day." ~ka |
New horizons...even though it is NOT exactly the path I was expecting..so soon. Being a MOM is tough..and I just want to be with my girls.
Until tomorrow...
~Kel