HOW TO CONQUER YOUR GREATEST CREATIVITY- KILLER

WHAT'S YOUR BIGGEST CREATIVITY-KILLER?  I AM HERE TO GIVE INSIGHT ON OVERCOMING IT BEFORE IT ZAPS YOUR CAREER.

How to Conquer Your Greatest Creativity-Killer 

By: Kel Amstutz
Friday, March 6, 2020

Oh - hi there.  Can you give me just a moment?  You caught me right in the middle of counting my many blessings...

The Fam

Alright  - so let me see... I am so blessed for my amazing husband... who has my back no matter what life throws our way... and is a great dad...

And... in addition to being my soul-mate, he is stuck in this parent trap with me, raising our two amazing girls: our 11-year-old daughter is astonishingly brilliant, beautiful, a focused young lady, and so kind and sweet and independent. 

Our 8 year-old daughter is equally as smart, strikingly beautiful, imaginative, beats to her own drum, is funny and kind and has a heart of gold.  

Gray Gables 2019

We took a gamble on an old house in the country, if you will, on five acres of pond, pole barn and field. There is little crime and traffic is minimal.  Winters can be brutal, which is a small price to pay for a sliver of heaven... and summers are cool with the lake effect breezes blowing through daily. 

Work? Well, it couldn't be much better.  My copywriting career is in full swing- working on writing web promotions and working on a romance novel as we speak.  

Life is great!

 ... so why do I get so down and DEPRESSED sometimes? 

Despite all that good going on in my life, I began feeling down in the dumps last week... out of the blue.

That's not good: For creatives like me - and for all copywriters, designers, and marketing pros - depression can be a CAREER KILLER.

When you are depressed, your energy flees, you lose your focus, and don't get me started on creativity... it has left the building - and if you don't do something about it (and quick!) - your income will start to feel the full effects and your reputation and career will follow... right down the tubes!

In short, depression is one of the costliest BUSINESS problems ANY of us has ever dealt with!

 

Conversely, having the ability to identify and neutralize depression quickly are two of the most valuable skills any entrepreneur or marketer could acquire: They empower you to add to your productive and profitable hours, days, and weeks of your year. 

If you're a writer or a designer, diffusing depression quickly lets you explode through the depression-driven creative blocks... create better promotions faster... complete more projects throughout the year... and- yes, you guessed it - get bigger winners, more often.

And if you are a business owner and/or a marketing pro, it gives you the extra pick me up to get things done, develop more ingenious product and marketing ideas, manage more effectively, and get richer... faster!  

Now, I am no shrink - but I AM pretty old... (don't say it... not older than dirt!) so I've had some time to think about this pretty thoroughly...

For me at least, creativity-killing depression comes from three places..

1. Too many drugs, so little time... And when I say "drugs," I am referring to my three personal favorites:  1) Diet Mountain Dew, 2) Ice Cream, and 3) Lays Potato Chips. 

See... Once upon a time, I could party late into the night. I could stay out on a Friday night into the wee hours of Saturday, go out on a Saturday night into the wee hours of Sunday, get up and hang out all day on Sunday and still show up for work bright and early on Monday morning. 

Those days are long gone. There is not much of this type of lifestyle happening these days. This old body of mine insists... um, better yet, DEMANDS at least 72 hours to recoup from a weekend like that...  And it costs me with my husband, our friends, total strangers, my attorney, and my creative muse before they will even speak to me again.  

I mean, it goes without saying: Losing 72 hours of creative time EACH WEEK would make it nearly impossible for me to continue living the comfortable life that I have become so accustomed to.  And so, I've been forced into a life of abstinence...  

 

Caffeine is something else, altogether.  I can't get motivated with my Diet Mountain Dew.  The real problem is that it is the afternoon before I know it, and by that time, my get up and get moving - and the positive mood it washes over me - has got up and left me to crash. 

There is absolutely no mystery why: When it comes to energy, caffeine gives... and caffeine takes it away.  The first couple of sips give me that jolt of energy - but by the time I have finished the can it has taken it all back.  And as energy goes... it takes that positive mood I have had all day with it.

So, what is the solution?  Well... it's the dreaded "M" word: 

MODERATION. 

I find that when I switch to a nice glass of cold, crisp water after my first Dt. Dew - my mood brightens, my energy levels skyrocket, and my creativity oozes out of my every pore.  

So caffeine,  sugary snacks and salty chips are the big three depression-inducing drugs for me.  I'll bet you a dollar at least one of those will be behind your next down in the dumps mood, too.  And I'll bet if you recognize that and practice a little moderation, you will find that you are having fewer blue days, fewer times per year. 

On the plus side, there IS a mood-brightening drug that I can't recommend highly enough - and that I absolutely hate taking.  You don't need a prescription - in fact, you can't buy it anywhere at any price: It's free. 

I am taking about endorphins - you get them by doing exercise: think swimming, walking, running, those kinds of aerobic activities. 

If you do an hour of exercise in the morning before you begin working for two weeks, you'll be absolutely amazed at how much happier you will find yourself, how much more productive you will become, and how much more money you will be raking in! 

2.  Lies your brain tells you: What are you saying?  You don't drink too many caffeinated soft drinks, eat too many sweets, or dance in the club? There's no way a chemical is the cause of your sorry mood? 

The promotion you wrote and just knew would make you rich flopped flatter than a flapjack?  You're so broke and the bill collections won't stop calling? 

Hey - I've been here.  More times than I really care to talk about in my younger days. It's the pits. 

But it doesn't mean you have to suffer from depression-related brain-block, too! 

The simple fact is, you get to choose how you will feel in response to just about ANY event that happens in your life to you. 

A few years ago, a really smart guy figured out almost all of the things that happen to us in life are not really good or bad, but instead they are neutral events. 

See, everything that happens to you passes through a little "belief filter" in your brain - a conviction you've come to hold about yourself and/or the world surrounding you.

What comes out is a composite thought - the fact of the event plus the spin on it from your belief filter.   And that thought triggers an emotion - happiness or depression, for example.

These filters can be positive, as in "I'm brilliant," "I'm a winner," "I always come out smelling like a rose"...

... or they can be negative - as in "I'm stupid, a fraud." "I'm such a loser," "Everything I touch turns to dust." 

Here's the GOLDEN KEY: Nearly all the belief filters we have are utter NONSENSE. But because most folks have no idea they are even there and even fewer really ever examine them, we don't realize that they are little more than fiction. 

The objective truth is, nobody is ALWAYS a winner or a loser... creative or dull... brilliant or an idiot. 

And for all of our thoughts and hesitations, hardly any of the superficially adverse events we experience actually trigger the humiliations or catastrophes that our negative belief filters tend to foretell for us. 

So the next time depression has you creatively hog-tied, try this...

• First, identify the negative thought that triggered your crappy mood.

• Then, ask yourself, "Is that thought valid?" (99.9% of the time it's not!)

• Ask yourself, "Is the belief filter that triggered that negative thought valid?" (Again, almost never!) 

• Finally, ask yourself, "How should I change that belief about myself and/or the world to bring it in line with reality?" 

You will be absolutely amazed at how quickly even the lousiest of moods evaporates in the blinding light of the objective truth!  

3. Self-obsession: I learned this simple fact of life many moons ago - and even re-learn it all the time. 

The simple fact is, when my focus is on others' well-being, I am genuinely happier.

My husband is a prime, living, breathing example of this very principle.  Nearly 100% of his time is working hard to support our family or the needs of our family. That includes me. That includes our kids. His Dad. My parents. My grandma.

And 99.9% of the time, he has a grin on his face.

Conversely, I notice that when I'm trying to find things that will make me happy - objects, vacation plans, etc. - I am actually less happy than when I am focused on my family.

So where's your FOCUS?  Are you obsessed with your own feelings and the state of your life? If so, there's a good chance that those feelings are not positive ones.

Try doing something to improve someone else's life today - you will be amazed at how quickly your mood lifts!

These powerful insights are fascinating to me and I am so glad you stopped by to join in on the conversation.  If you have any great tips, please feel free to comment.  I am always looking for great productivity techniques, creativity enhancers, and of course, sharing the knowledge!

Thanks for the afternoon.  Have a great weekend!

 

 

PRESS THIS TO BE A MORE PROLIFIC, PRODUCTIVE, PROFITABLE WRITER

I DISCOVERED AN EASY METHOD TO IMPROVE PRODUCTIVITY AND INCREASE PROFITABILITY. I'M ALSO WRITING BETTER THAN EVER. HERE I WILL SHARE MY SECRET NOW.

Press THIS to Be a More Prolific, Productive, Profitable Writer

By Kel Amstutz
Wednesday, March 04, 2020

The practice of writing for most of us falls somewhere between an art and a business...


You want to make it a living, but you don't want to restrict your creativity.


You want fascinating projects and big fees, but you don't want too many rules.


And you want freedom to take long vacations on a whim, but you don't want to to work like a maniac for days beforehand.


It seems like an unsolvable problem, right. Wrong. I found an unlikely way to balance all of it.  And to be honest, it has made me a much happier, calmer, more productive and richer writer.


It will probably have the same effects on you.

What's the SOLUTION I found? 

Time tracking.

OK... OK, hold on a minute.

I can see that frown on your face.

Let me reassure you that time tracking is NOT the same thing as TIME MANAGEMENT.

I'm NOT going to tell you

• HOW to plan your day, or 
• WHAT productivity tips are BEST... or 
• WHICH habits you should adopt from prolific authors of the past.

It's NOT part of a gimmick, or a subscription, or a group effort.


And you DON'T have to be organized or skilled in the arena of record-keeping. (I am not either of these things!)


Yet, time tracking can BOOST your writing productivity by impressive leaps, help you earn more, and even make you feel better about your career as a writer.


Time tracking is really quite simple:

• When you sit down to write, or to research a project, or even to read and answer emails related to a project you are working on.... just press a button to start tracking your time.  
• When you are finished, press a button to stop it.  
• At the end of the day, or week. or month, you can look at the results and see how much time you've spent on that particular project, item or thing. 

Let me stop a moment and toss in a quick DISCLAIMER here - this has NOTHING to do with billing for your time.  Hopefully you've heard the common advice to NOT BILL for time spend on a project. Because in the LONG RUN, billing on a per-hour basis won't help you GROW YOUR INCOME and you'll do MORE WORK for less money.

Case in point: When I first started my life as a writer, I landed a client who needed 10 blog posts every week on a variety of different topics, at around a thousands words each.

At first, it took me two-and-a-half hours to even produce one single article.

But but the end of a month, and with hours' of practice in writing for this client, I averaged closer to 45 minutes per piece with research included.  Fortunately, I billed on a per-posting basis instead of breaking it up into an hourly rate.

This is why time tracking is SOLELY for your own information... and productivity. 

Because Ambiguity Kills Ambition

It's rare that you would ever NEED to track your writing time for anyone else... but with that said, you should ALWAYS track your writing time - but do it for YOURSELF!

This is because seeing how you really spend your time will either energize you to CONTINUE or motivate you to CHANGE.

The catalyst here is the death of ambiguity.  Nothing kills a creative career faster than too much ambiguity, where you're not 100% completely sure what to write or how to write it or how long it'll take you or even where to begin.

Copywriting legend, Gene Schwartz, the genius behind breakthrough advertising copy, had a habit of "tracking" his time. Whenever he would sit down to write, he would punch in 33:33 on a kitchen time and hit the start button. He would force himself to sit there, at this desk for 33 minutes and 33 seconds and just write. I use this advice in my own writing.

In times when I am drawing a blank, this forces me to sit there, for that set amount of time, inevitably finding the words to write something.

You see, that's the thing about TRACKING YOUR TIME. You can KICK ambiguity to the CURB!

Along with eliminating ambiguity, FOUR THINGS will happen when you start time tracking your writing: 

• You will start to see patterns in your natural productivity. Some call this your "magic-time" - or the times of day when you are MOST PRODUCTIVE.

For example, time tracking helped me realize that I am a productive person 55 minutes out of every hour if I write after 10:00 a.m.  But, if I write after 7:00 p.m., I'm productive for 35 minutes out of every hour (usually because I spend the other 25 minutes looking (or thinking) about having a yummy snack).

•  You'll gain confidence. 

Imagine the elation when you pound out copy on a project that would normally take you two hours, but you round the finish line at one hour and 10 minutes. (Just remember, you're not competing against anyone else, so do yourself a favor and be honest about your time.)

• It'll bring you more money. 

Before I started time tracking, I would fiddle over projects and wonder how long it would take me. But, once I started tracking my actual time spent writing, I could connect money to time.  So whereas, a $2,000 project felt like it would take a week to finish... the actual writing time was only a total of eight hours.  Meaning, I could finish it comfortably in two days, or one long day, which meant I could accept another $2,000 project, provided I had at least eight hours free in the coming week.  It's remarkable what you can see when you subtract your distractions.

• It can make you healthier. 

You've seen the articles about the hazards of sitting for too long.  Use your time tracker to record how long you sit during a single writing session, or how long you stand if you have a standing option.  I try to stand for a total of two hours each day, and to save myself from having one more thing to think about, I just track it with the rest of my time.

How to Time Track with Purpose

Do a quick Google search for "free time tracking software" and you will see dozens of options.  Click on a few of them and give them a once over.  Does it look intuitive? Easy? Straightforward?  Pick the one that speaks to you.  I use a free version of Toggl.com, but I have seen, and even used a few others out there that are just as reliable.



Just remember, you are not looking for a new software that you would need a manual to use. You just want something that is easy, something you can click to start, click to stop, make some quick adjustments on, and add specifics to.

To check your time efficiency for each of the projects you are working on, simply track the time it takes you to complete the project. You can break it down into research or conference calls related to the project, but I am not a huge fan of keeping it easy.  In other words, put all of that together to figure your total time on the project.

If you work on a monthly retainer for any of your clients and do multiple projects within that retainer, you can still time track on a per-project basis. But again - to make it easy on yourself, add a client tag to each of your project time entries.  Most setups will allow you to tag a client when you enter the name of a project you want to time track.  That way, you can see how much TOTAL WORK you're doing for that client each month, as well as how long it takes you to complete individual projects.

Automate the Habit

Your goal is simply to make better use of your time. When you start to really see how you are spending your writing hours, it begins to eliminate that paradoxical, stressful feeling that you have too much to do and that you never get anything finished.

Try to make it as easy as possible to keep up with this practice and it will become a habit.  Since I handle my time tracking online, all I have to do is click my browser window and a tab with Toggl automatically opens up.  And once you've made it a habit, you will see how quickly your writing career will accelerate!



I want to ask you, do you have any of your own productivity secrets that you can share or time tracking software that you might prefer? 

Please post in the comments below!

USING LOCAL LIBRARIES TO BUILD YOUR ONLINE BUSINESS

Discover Four Ways to Use Your Local Library to Support and Grow Your Online Business. This Old-School Resource Offers a lot of Modern-Day Unexpected Benefits!

Using Local Libraries to Build Your Online Business

By: Kel Amstutz  

March 02, 2020

You are probably overlooking this card in YOUR wallet. No, I'm not taking about that fancy credit card that gives you money BACK each month when you use it. This card is so much more valuable. And, it's a vital asset for building your freelance web-writing business.

The card I'm talking about is the local library membership card that you probably signed when you were in grade school.  Local libraries are still alive and kicking, even flourishing in many cases... despite many people writing them off as irrelevant.

Yes... they're as relevant as ever.  Maybe more so.

As a web writer, we thrive on words. They're our hobby, our living... our passion.  And, what better institution to help hone our skills than the venerable repository of so many great words, past and present.

Truth be told, I've been a card-carrying member of my local library since I was in Kindergarten. It's been exciting to watch its evolution as it strives to keep up with the times. The Oregon Public Library has expanded its offering - and its edifice - to keep up the pace and remain viable in this digital world in which we live and work.


The public library can be a great boon to your freelance business.  Many freelancers forget that a library can be a valuable business-building tool.

I'd like to take you on a virtual tour of my local library and what it offers the freelance web writer. If your library doesn't offer some of these options, take notes and see if they might add them.

They'll be sure to appreciate the interest you show, and I'm sure they'll try to help where they can.

The first suggestion, however, may surprise you.

A fortress of solitude.

I know, I know... you are probably thinking... like Superman?  Why, yes. He had a fortress of solitude.

It was a place where he could go relax, gather his thoughts. Sometimes, he just needed to get away from it all and spend a little "me" time.

The same goes for the freelance web writer.

I have an area within my home that holds my office. It's a nice area, fitting my business needs.  I decorated this area with things that make me happy, make me feel at ease.

But, sometimes I still just need to get away, to collect my thoughts, to give creativity a chance to strike.  And sometimes, I just need a change of scenery!

I've written in restaurants over breakfast. I even wrote an article in my car while I was waiting for an appointment.

Almost everywhere you go nowadays, Wi-Fi is readily available.  These days, I don't recommend restaurants for their food... it's the internet connection that inspires my praise and adoration.

But, then there are times when I need to get away from the responsibilities of daily life. To remove myself from the equation of the busy surroundings of people having conversations or dishes clanking in the background.

 

So, it's off to the library I go. Surrounded by books and magazines... and words, I find inspiration just sitting there in the quietness. And, of course, they also have great Wi-Fi.

Our library has a lot of windows. Sometimes I'll sit quietly, laptop at the ready, gazing down out at the street and the trees around the building. Watching the silent activity all around, and suddenly, inspiration hits me.

And off I go... writing like a madwoman!

But, wait... there's more.

The digital face of evolutionary libraries... or I suppose I can say, revolutionary libraries.

To stay in hip with the ever changing technology, our library has a digital wing. I can access various sections of the library from the comfort of my home office.

Or anywhere I have internet access... like on my phone sitting in my car waiting for my appointment.

Of course, digital magazines and eBooks are standard offerings in most online libraries. And, the selections offered might surprise you.

Business-building books abound, both traditional and, well, not so traditional. I've read books from business guru Seth Godin through our library's digital services.

And yes, they do come with a two-week checkout time limit. But, you can check them out multiple times.

In our online business reference section, you'll find:

• Business ProQuest, for real world business research
• Investment data from Morningstar
• Reference USA, my personal favorite, where you find a database and guide to local and not so local cities, towns, and businesses.

Both online and offline access to magazines and other periodicals means you can do QUALITY RESEARCH, even if you don't have a subscription to them.

Online classrooms, open 24-7.

Our library hosts various kinds of offline workshops on a wide range of topics. Everything from basket weaving to writing a novel.

Free access to many tutorials from Lynda.com, a trusted learning resource that's been around for some time.

To gain entry, you log into their site through a portal on the library's website. All you need is a library card number, you PIN... and a willingness to learn!

In fact, that's how you access a lot of the digital content from the library. It's quick, convenient and handy.  And through collaborations and joint agreements, the world wide web of information and learning keeps expanding.

I almost forgot one of the MOST IMPORTANT freelance-writing resources of all.

Books. Physical, paper-and-ink books.

Not just books on business or copywriting or marketing.

Nope. Works of fiction and nonfiction from authors, both past and present. If you want to write "good"... read good books. Or is that, write "well"?

Either way, there's no better tutor for spinning words than books that have already been spun.

I was reminded of this when working through my AWAI course, reading about A-list copywriter, Bob Bly, who stated his preference for books, movies and music. I thought about this and my preference for books right now seems to stem from copywriting, business building and marketing.  Bob Bly was quoted saying:

"You really need to read books on other topics. You need some history, some biography, and even some good fiction. Your writing, even you copywriting, will improve immensely."

Great advice from one of the best in Copywriting.

A final word on libraries...

I hope you've seen that a local library offers MANY resources to help you build your freelance business. Many are ramping up their services to keep pace and remain relevant.

But, some of you might be thinking, "Kel, there isn't a library near me. At least not one that offers these programs and services."

I get that. Research the opportunities local libraries in your state might offer. You may find out there's some resources that you can take advantage of, like access to their online resources for a small, annual registration fee.

I will close with this...

Research the opportunities your local library offers for building your business. You may find there's more out there than you ever thought available.

I wish you all the VERY BEST of web-writing success!!!

SUCCESS - It's a CHOICE!

One fact that should give everyone hope is that passion, hard work, persistence, and faith in oneself will always outperform intelligence, good looks, a great education, or wealthy parents.

I recently decided that I was not happy with the path that my life was walking on. I would wake up, get myself ready, get my kids ready, get one off to school, wake up my Husband, who just got home from work two hours prior, leave for work and leave him with the responsibility of getting my other child onto the bus every morning before he could go back to bed before his late afternoon shift.

This was just the morning routine.  

After work I would rely on my parents to help get my kids off of the bus and started on the hour or two of homework that came from their day at school before I even finished my work day. I would then go home to finish said homework, make dinner, clean up, do some laundry or run the sweeper, get kids showered and ready for bed, get myself ready for bed before having a half hour to catch up on some 'Me' time... before catching my own ZZZ's. Remember, my hubby was once again at work. Two ships passing in the wee hours of the morning.

A literal Ground Hogs Day situation, Monday thru Friday, day in and day out.

• I wasn't living. 
• My kids were seeing me at maybe 10%. 
• I didn't even touch on my day at work, because my work life had grown just as stagnate. 
• I felt sick all the time. 
• I went to work to collect my pay check at the end of two weeks... and that was about it. 

 

It was time. 

Time for something that had been gnawing at me for a long time. It was time for me to take back my life. I knew I needed to be the MOM I had always dreamed of being...I was just struggling to find my way... afraid I would not succeed... scared of what this might mean for the future.

I know someone out there has been where I was, or perhaps is right now... as I write this.

I don't know what changed me.

I would love to say that I read something, or met someone who had a life I knew I deserved... or wanted... or needed.

But, honestly, I just happened to wake up one morning and knew I couldn't do the life I was leading as it was... anymore.

I had dreams DAMN IT.  

• I had dreams of retiring not only myself, but my husband. 
• I had dreams of working my own business. 
• I had dreams of being able to work from the comforts of my own home, of being there for my kids when they needed me. 

See, I told you it wasn't a "romantic" story. It just was more like a switch inside me went off one day and I just knew what I had to do. I knew it wouldn't be easy. I knew it would take time to build these dreams I had to make happen.

I guess this is where my old friend shows her face. I had been using this company (my old friend) for years and had heard of the benefits of becoming a marketer for the company, but it must've not been the right time because it never really "stuck" with me like it did this time.

32 years. That is the reputation this company has, with thousands of people, JUST like me, who have joined on in the mission of enhancing their lives by helping others reach their goals. We are like-minded people who literally sell nothing, but instead work on helping each other succeed, overcome obstacles and along the way have found a friend among one another.

Some people only dream about success, and here I am creating it.  

Yes, I have had moments where I was discouraged but I meet those same obstacles head on and found the greater resolve. I found strength in the numbers of those who are a part of this same game changer to help me rise up.

I feel like the responses to life's situations are not an individual's predestined fate but are instead almost always the results of how we, as individuals choose to respond.  Think about that one for a minute.

The principles of success are universal: persistence, hard work, never giving up, the ability to stay focused, taking personal responsibility, faith in oneself, a positive attitude, hope, love for others, specific goals, and a passion to achieve them.  These are consistently the traits of those who experience success. Those who choose to exercise these traits seem to always come out on top. On the other hand. those who lack focus, lack purpose, lack passion, give up quickly, become easily discouraged, always find something wrong, blame others, lack work ethic, and lack confidence in themselves seem to always fall short of reaching their dreams.

I think the one fact that should give everyone hope is that passion, hard work, persistence, and faith in oneself will always outperform intelligence, good looks, a great education, or wealthy parents.  It is of significant importance to realize that these traits that make up the successful person are the results of their choices.

The fact that you can often accurately predict HOW an individual whom you know well will respond to any given situation does NOT mean they are predestined or that they must respond in that manner. It just means that they tend to be consistent in their choices.

It is REFRESHING to see someone BREAK OUT of the mold they have created for themselves and to decide to begin to respond differently to life's situations. Such a change is obviously very difficult to make in oneself, as it seldom happens. When it does happen, it is a day worth celebrating.

I am a part of something where many thousands of people, just like me, constantly exercise hard work, persistence, and other principles of success. 

This is why I choose to SUCCEED.  

Being successful is the difference between just having a dream and working to make it a reality!

Want to know more about what I am doing? CLICK HERE to email me today! 

It's been a long time, I shouldn't of left you, Without a dope beat to step to ...

January 2020

Let's take it back...

I look at the date and can not even believe it has been so long. It's kind of amazing. An entire year has gone by...and I seem to have been asleep for most of it.  

To be honest...I am just relieve that I was able to get my BLOG back. #truth
I have been "locked out" for the better half of the year and been working...eh...diligently (well, not quite) to get back to into it. Have no fear though... I'm back...and better than ever!

What's New with You

2019 came...and went. And I did not shed a tear.  Instead...I drank some sparkling apple cider, wore some light up glasses, played a good old game of CLUE with the kiddos...and rang in a NEW YEAR without batting a lash.  Goodbye 2019. 

 

Life in 2019 was a bit hectic...crazy...sporadic...and  in the middle just plain miserable.  I started off the year falling, hurting my back and tailbone...on ICE none-the-less. Seriously. I can laugh about it now...but then- SORE SUBJECT...no pun intended.  That pain lasted for well over six...long...months... And, while I still rock some tailbone pain...I am doing MUCH better. (thank goodness)

 


Mid-year I decided to switch jobs. What the HELL was I thinking?  Oh...right...that fat paycheck!  Well... I've made a few mistakes in my life...more than I'd like to admit...but that definitely ranks up there.  I worked hard, gave everyday my all...but boy was I FUNKED UP!  






  
I came back...from the depths of my lonely soul...and to my old place of business with a lot of trepidation. No. I did not step into the same role. No. I was not entirely certain this was the "right move" -- but I guess I was not a good judge of my own character any longer. 

I had to find my way back. 

• And...I did. 
• Or am. 
• Or am trying... 

If nothing else...I know EXACTLY what the heck kind of path I am on.

Oh...Kel... 

 

The last half of my 2019 was filled with stress and being busy and run down...dog tired...and just trying to get back up. 

I, luckily, managed to work in a week long break -- which was more than needed....surrounded by my family. Also...must needed. 

We had a great Christmas Holiday. We rang in a New Year and have been going through the motions to date. It's all good, ya'll. 

Clarity is something else, really.

I promise...I am a VERY positive person....DANG this is ready all depressed and sad. SORRY!  Things are looking up. I am on my way to my destiny. And it's good too. I'm on track to RETIRE my husband...and that is HUGE. I am focusing more on being a MOM, which is my first priority...but always GETS LOST in the shuffle...

But, like I always say... This is : 

 

Hello...Again...

January 8th, 2019

I find it impossible to believe that another year has passed by, as it feels as if I have only had to blink. Time is rushing, faster than I could want, need, or fathom. With each passing day, as that is what it truly is, is it not?  This thought crosses my mind, again and again. Where does this TIME go? Am I capturing all the memories, or perhaps I let them slip by with out any recollection that they have been missed. Time has been passed. 

The clock keeps ticking, no matter how many times I look to it and see that it simply reads 9:00, day after day - it still is moving forward. 

And do not get me started on these girls of mine. They keep growing, never slowing, never stopping. Looks keep changing, clothes keep coming as old one are discarded, likes and dislikes keep happening. 

TIME. 

But, yet, here I am, still here, still breathing, still able to have my personal thoughts, the ones that go far deeper than just what is written in this space, in this time. I am able to keep watching this time pass, these moments flee, these thoughts stay stagnate within my minds eye. I will find faith this year to be stronger. I will set goals, to achieve. I will work on me, being better, feeling better, seeing time better.

That is all we can do. 

REFLECT.

They honestly go hand in hand. Time passes and we must reflect. See our actions. Find our faults. Be better. Do better. Pass on the things that we might have taken for granted last year, last month, yesterday...built on that and make it better. 

GROW.

Find our strengths, make them stronger. Find our weakness, educate ourselves, find ways to be stronger. 

LEARN.

Don't ever stop learning, educating yourself, finding the purpose in the life you lead. I think intention is a great word, because we all have purpose, whether we know that purpose or not is the question to determine- but finding that purpose, striving to obtain that purpose, looking to God, or the universal one that you put your faith in to guide you on the journey to find this purpose goes hand in hand with the learning part of life itself. 

LOVE.

This is my own feelings for this year, to grow the love that I carry proudly, bigger. To give more love, to love unselfishly, to love passionately, to love without burden, and to love unbridled. I want to reopen that chapter with the passion that, with age, gets lost in the hustle and bustle of LIFE. I feel that I need to bring LOVE to the forefront of my life and let it free like birds in the forest. 



These are my thoughts for today, my thoughts that I have sought, I have lost sleep, I have found peace in and questioned further. I know that this year will be one full of growth for myself and my restless soul and I vow to make sure that I keep my punch-list handy to ensure that I make this year about purpose, about love and about finding my intention in my life.  

It is rather fitting that as I write this a Thunderstorm has come to the surface, taking full effect for the mood that sits on my serious face. I feel that peace that comes with my words, and the relaxation that comes with putting my words into print, making them known and felt and heard. 

So, on a less serious note, HELLO again.  Welcome 2019. I feel the purpose for myself is in God's hands and I shall take that as a sign that I shall seek his advice in my journey. 

Love always,

Kel