30 Day Challenge- Day 18- Your Beliefs

Day #18- Your Beliefs

Oh, this one is another one of those controversial questions!  I do believe in GOD.  I do not practice the whole Church thing.  I do believe in what the Democrats stand for, however, I do not believe in all of what they say.  I try to stay opened eared to both sides and usually end up somewhere in between, but favor Democrats and what they stand for a bit more.
I do believe in GUNS. I hold my CCW with pride. I know how to handle my firearm, taking the 12 hour class and practicing, learning about my firearm and others. I will protect myself if need be.  I will protect my family if need be. 
I do believe in an eye for an eye, but I do believe in getting all- ALL the facts before that belief is recognized.

I do not like the fact that our government is spying on our every move, but understand that with technology, we have made it that much more easier for them to do so.

I also believe in home schooling and wish I could teach my own children. (but the school system is just fine also)

I also believe in a woman's place vs. a man's place.  I am on my own journey this year to find out the role I am supposed to play as a wife and mother.  I lack on the wife part and have really been working to step it up. I know that I have responsibilities to the house that I must stack on top of my other responsibilities.  I know that I am to care for my children, and honestly, wouldn't want it any other way.  I hate when my kids are not here.  I feel that I was put here to serve them, no matter how crazy they make me. And when I say serve, I do not mean wait on them hand and foot, I am here as a teacher to educate them in life lessons and skills. This job is one I do take very seriously.

I believe in Freedom of speech, and across the board wages, not man vs woman.  I think that our world has evolved, but our county has not grown. I believe in Gay Marriages.  I think that everyone should have equal rights and if that is the lifestyle chosen, you should be able to do as I do.  I believe in legalization of Marijuana.  Marijuana regulated by the Government is going to be safer than street Mary Jane and could/will help stabilize our dreadful economy. I don't see how Cigarettes are legal but weed is not?
Most importantly, and maybe cliche- I believe in MYSELF!  I know that I can be a great Mother and Wife by 2014 's end.  I want to stay at home, working of course, and know that this year I can and WILL make this happen!  I am more determined than EVER.

30 Day Challenge- Day 17- Your highs and lows of this past year

Day #17 - The Highs and Lows of this past year... (2013)

Oh, well, after my last few posts, this one ought to be interesting!

My HIGHS of 2013 would be moving into Gray Gables- finally. .After waiting 2 years, we were finally able/forced to move into this beast of a house!  It was a thrill (um, maybe that is an understatement) to have it all finally come together.  My Dad did an awesome job, had some really great ideas.  My Hubby stuck to his guns, pushed through challenges, learned how to run electrical and got us in!  Another High would be Hubby getting the job at Chrysler!  He has really made me a very PROUD wife!  He is a hard worker and is now working for a great company and securing our future for us and our children!

My LOWS for 2013 would be the arguements with my Parents over and over again!  They were really knock down drag out this past year and really made our Gray Gables experience tragic! (Sorry that they have not yet figured this out)
More LOWS would be that we had to say goodby to Choppa - our Olde English Bulldog (10) and Champ - our Boxer (12).  That was truly hard and devestating to our family!
Another LOW was finding out about my Credit issues (and no, not caused by myself but that is entirely all the information that I am willing to disclose) and running out of funding for our project here.  I know have IOU's that are making me have an ulcer!
#justbeingreal

Living the Dream...eh...Nightmare.......

Today my Oldest turns 5 - can not even believe Hubby and I have a 5 year old.  CRAZY!  We had an awesome day! I took the day off work, got her up to go to Pre-K, we took our Cookie Lady Olaf cookies and got her lil' sis ready too!  We dropped off our Birthday Girl who was supplied with her very own Birthday Crown at school.  Lil' Sis and I hit Meijer's for Balloons, of course! We picked out 5 colored baloons (see Mom- like what you did there!) and LO picked up an Ariel balloon (no FROZEN ones yet) and we got a Birthday Princess Mylar.  We also picked up some odds an ends - that kid is a con artist, I swear!  It isnt even her Bday and she got a clearance shirt (ok, its super cute with applique butterflies!) and a Minnie Mouse book. We checked out, headed for a quick trip a.k.a. bathroom break for my newly trained girl! home and then took off again to pick up Sis before Lunch.  She was all sweaty when we got her- running in the gym- Exercising Mom- like I didnt konw- right! Thanks Miss Im so BIG 5 year old! 
So- get her to the car with out a mention of Balloons- - she sees them and lights up- ok, so she saw the Awesomely HUGE Lip smackers Strawberry chap stick and maybe a Push up Pop waiting for her too. (This MOM is a SUCKER!!!) 

Off to lunch- Bob Evans- her Fav. Chocolate Chip Pancakes and Chocolate Milk- oh my!  It was nice though, Gma was there, my Mom and Dad and she got presents too! Anna from Frozen from Me with 2 Diary-like books with locks and keys (SCORE ME!) ; Anna boots and the accessory pack from Nana and Papa and Mariposa Barbie from Gma. She was in bliss!!!

So, after a brief SUGAR HIGH and 1 trip to the potty (sorry but I'm so Proud of my Little One and her Potty Training adventures!) we were headed home.  I had a task to complete today.  Curtains.  My Mom has been riding my ass about getting my curtains hung for weeks now and with the party this weekend- the Pressure has been ON.  I think she is ashamed of how I keep my house, but that is another adventure, entirely!

So, she gave me rods like forever ago and I purchased some of those clips that require no nails in the trim (What a JOKE) - so I searched HIGH and LOW for these stupid rods.  I saw them, they were moved, saw them again, moved again. Jokes on me, after digging in my attic- Attic Adventures with WASPs in random boxes- EEEKKK!  I moved back to our unfinished master bathroom. Now you all know that since it is titled "unfinished" that means another room we are using for storage! It was a disaster!  I cleaned it entirely out and wah-lah curtain rods were uncovered- with a huge SON OF A BITCH to follow - sorry True Story here!

So, I unmasked my No Nail clips and found that the teeth eff' up the trim too- but oh well. It is what it is.  I am NOT hanging these Bad Boys for myself after all.  Take one for the team Kel!

But- now I have valances in all bedrooms and my living room. They look really nice and all is well- or so I think.

All is calm before the storm. ...


We have this horrendous storm coming through- UGH MORE SNOW! and the city called a Level 3 Snow Emergency for 11 PM tonight through tomorrow.  So- no work (I hope) and I had to call my Parents because no work for me means no sitting for the Parents.  I mentioned that I finally got my curtains hung and who knew it was going to turn into a WAR- oh wait, I should by now.  I mean, I know they say you  cant teach an OLD Dog new tricks- but really, I should know that my words-meaning NOTHING would turn into something to someone.. I am so sick of always coming back to the place we do.  THIS HOUSE.. It has been a living nightmare since day #1.  My Hubby cant get along with My Dad and My Mom only wants to believe 1 side of the story- My Dad's and cant believe how I can side with my Husband and not my Father. The thing is, I called both of them Assholes to their faces and did NOT take a side, instead I stayed NEUTRAL. I agreed with both and said that they didn't need to work together. But, one side thinks the other thinks my Dad is an idiot- which was never said- but whatever.  It is a merry-go-round that still hasn't stopped, um, 5 months/6 months later... We are all trying to move on, in all honesty, since Dad hasn't been here all has been calm.  Hubby is not a carpenter and has never claimed to be, he is a mechanic.  The problem is that I have Parents that believe that they have been here done that and KNOW how everything should be- only thing is, it is HOW they want it all to be. Remember, I am living in the house they wanted 17 years ago... This has been an obstacle since Day #1.  

Anywhoo- its all old news that keeps resurfacing and wont go away. I just want to live - enjoy my family and work on this house as we go.  I don't think that we are in the slums - so I don't know what the deal is- but it just WONT go away.  So what the house is missing siding, or I don't have a floor in my kitchen- BIG DEAL! There is MORE important stuff in life than all that chicken shit. I just don't know what to do to make everyone happy and lately Mom has been forcing HELP on us and honestly, we don't want it. Not to be rude, but life has seemed to move on (or so I thought) and everyone is getting along- why go back to that dark place.  It needed to be separate.  To many feelings involved and if I didn't like an idea of the other party, it was escalated to an argument. 

This is where I SOOOO wish we would have moved away.  I keep racking my brain on why we didn't.  I know that one day we will be living good- no house payment, debt free... but right now there are still so many headaches and I have such negative entity all around me. 

The icing on the cake is that Mom thinks Hubby is controlling.  We both can't do anything but laugh- he is so far from that, I don;t even know what the heck to say.  I think Mom thinks he is controlling because I no longer follow her every lead by letting her control me. (Yes, there were times)  But we are a Union.  Hubby and I worked through the hardships during this project together.  Us against them, how frickin' sad is that!

We have handled our life this way from the beginning.  We talk thorugh everything, make a comprise here and there but it is never from one party.  Yes, I have more duties in my day and I handle our kids, but when push comes to shove, I have chosen this.  I am probably more controlling then him because when my kids would wake in the middle of the night, he would try to go get them but I would jump for them. We live with give and take and although it is NOT always easy, there is never a question of control. 

Mom said something that hurt me pretty good- she hopes that when I go through this with my daughters I finally figure out how it feels.  (our issue was she wants to offer help and we don't want to take it)

This offends me because I will NEVER be like her.  If my daughters want help, no matter what, I will be there.  I will not turn up my nose if they want to paint their kitchen purple!  I will encourage and just open my heart and be there- not offer advice like I get from my own Mother.  I will not criticize or change my tone when things are not how I think they should be because at the end of the day, it is about my kids and what they like and how they think the world should be colored - not my view through rose colored glasses.

I am on a rant, and kind of still reeling from our latest argument.  How sad.  Someone kindly declines your help and you childishly start arguing with them and have words like We will Never offer our help again - Grow Up.  I had to say that some stuff is better left unsaid... Truer words have never been spoken by myself.

Happy Birthday to my Beautiful Baby Girl!!  Her Big party will be Sunday and I can't wait!

Signing off from this hell hole we call home- my Problem Child- Gray Gables..

30 Day Challenge- Day 16- Your views on mainstream music

Day #16 - Your views on mainstream music

Well, I actually listen to the radio daily with my job. Headphone in one ear and iheart going on the old pc.  I don't have any issues with Mainstream music in today's world. 
I actually pulled the Top 40 and a lot of my "Jamz" are on there- including my Dark Horse, by Katy Perry!

I have a 5* yo and we are really into music and signing and performing.  This means that we are all over the place with who our "Artist of the week" will be!

This week we are loving some Miley Cyrus!  Adore is our song and my kiddo belts it out with all she has!

WE LOVE MUSIC!!

30 Day Challenge- Day #15- Your Favorite Pins.

Day #15- Your Favorite Pins..

I am really into the Valentine's Day Crafts right now so here is what I have for that (mind you, I have a 2 and OMG 5 YO tomorrow!)

Visit onegoodthingbyjillee.com
Im sorry but this just CRACKS me up!

Perfect Play Area Visit diynetwork.com

30 Day Challenge- Day #14- Your earliest memory.

Day #14- Your Earliest Memory.

Funny, Hubby and I just had a discussion about this and our oldest kiddo and how she remembers stuff from when she was 1- no lie!  Hubby remembers stuff from when he was 2 and 3.  Me, on the other hand, I feel like I had some post tramatic stress issues. I don't know how old I was, but my babysitter would lock me in the bathroom and I was younger than 5.  I can also remember riding my big wheel and I think that was around the age of four.  I have a hard time distinguishing between a memory and a viewing of the old VHS tapes!

We actually did find some old photos of me when I was little and it is crazy how much my youngest looks like me. (Even though I am the ONLY person /besides hubby- who sees it!)

I remember my kindergarten class, my teacher, what she looked like and all that.  Memories are strange and how they hit me are even stranger!

30 Day Challenge- Day #13- Somewhere you'd like to move or visit.

Day #13- Somewhere you'd like to move or visit.

Hope you have a while!  Before we bought this here, G E M- we were actually dead set on moving to Arizona.  Hubby has a cousin that moved there and we were so far as to even having a house picked out.  Regrets, anyone.. Now here we sit with I don't even know how many inches of snow on the ground, a propane shortage (frickin' awesome!) and cold weather that won't stop!

We have a list of places we want to visit/vacation.  I want to go to Louisiana - desperately!  Hubby's family is from there, so hopefully it is in our future!  We talked about Virginia, Missouri, Texas, and Georgia.  I would love to go to North and South Carolina in my lifetime also!

I don't know if moving is in our future now that we have old Gray Gables, but we can dream!