Hi! Kel here. Welcome to Life at Gray Gables! I am building the life of my dreams. I am a Wife, a Mom, a Writer, a Dreamer, and an Artist for my soul. Come on in and let's create the life we deserve!
Monday, April 28, 2014
Friday, April 25, 2014
Life is good...so why do I want to sit here and have my own Pity Party?
Have you ever just felt off?
Life something terrible was about to happen, you couldn't figure out what it was but you aren't connecting with anyone and feel totally alone?
I guess this is a "loaded" question. Can you feel like something is about to happen, to the point that the bottom is going to fall from beneath you -and- you feel totally alone? It would seem that the bottom already fell if you feel so alone...one would think?
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Wednesday, April 23, 2014
It's Hump Day and I feel like I just need a DRINK!?!?!
My Life is changing and I am scared! I am on the verge (days away now) of being a Work At Home Mom and my Kids are driving me crazy!!!
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Tuesday, April 22, 2014
T.V. Tuesday...Who is watching
Who is tuning in to Lifetime at 10:00 p.m. tonight to watch Tori Spelling dish about Dean?
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Happy Birthday to my big 3 year old
At 5:21 a.m. today I was blessed with a beautiful baby girl. She was put on this earth to show me patience and kindness and pure love. She was so different from her sister in so many ways. She was so independent from the start and even though she was our baby #2 she never ceased to amaze me.
These 3 years have flown by and I thank God everyday for letting me be a part of her life. She is so special to me with her gentle heart and pure kindness and when you pair her with her sister, I know they found one another by their bond.
Kaitlyn, you are my sunshine. You always find a way to keep us laughing with your funny side or your HAPPY personality. I truly do not know what I would do without you. Right now you are transitioning through your terrible twos and helping me find my patience through your outbursts, I understand that you are trying to express yourself whether it's anger or sadness and I will remain by your side to help you find your way. You have been amazing to me as I have watched you grow or when your sweet voice asks "Momma, I just wanna hug you". It melts my heart everytime. You will always be my "Best Friend."
My girls have made me a better person. I will lose my cool more often then I'd like, but I will not forget to laugh in the heat of the moment to reset my own discern. Kameryn, I love you to the moon and back & Kait, you will always be my sunshine when skies are gray!!!
Happy 3rd Birthday baby girl. May all your dreams come true.
Love
~Mom~
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Monday, April 21, 2014
Marriage Monday...The Couple that survives remodeling a home...
The couple that survives remodeling a home...
will be together forever...(true story!)
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Sunday, April 20, 2014
Happy Easter!!
Good Morning!
It's early and our house is wide awake!! Why? Well, it's Easter..of course.
The eggs have all been found. The baskets have been turned upside down...um, literally! My 3 and 5 yo are having fun with bubbles..In the house. (Thank you Hubby..)
I think they must've been good girls because our Easter Bunny was very good to them!!
I hope everyone has a wonderful holiday and a blessed Sunday.
This is round 1 for my girls, apparently this Bunny visits Nana and Papa too....
Happy Easter!!
~KEL~
Friday, April 18, 2014
Warning: Today was a Good Day!
How often are we blessed with one of those days when the earth aligns with the universe and our day becomes much better for just that reason?
To bed they went, without a hitch. Another day for the books but gosh darn it, it was a good one!
Thursday, April 17, 2014
Saying Goodbye is bittersweet..
Today was the end of a chapter, marking the beginning of another. My last day at my current job was anything but normal. I woke up this morning after a terrible nights sleep (thanks to my soon - to - be 3 yo.) thinking that this major migraine would move on by mid morning and was a combo of lack of sleep and some stress. Then I get to work and the real stress begins! Basically my day was a wash as my replacement, whom I am training- did not have security to even train today. Um, can we say frustrating!!
But the end became real as I ate delicious cake (Thank you so much Wendy) and delicious pulled pork sandwiches (Thank you Tamara) and realized shit just got forrealz...yo..
Then I bid my farewells and leave the building shaking like a leaf all the way to the car...
My Bittersweet goodbye, of course. I am so sad to say goodbye, as I will miss all my coworkers and my work, but I am also very excited to be able to work from home.
So, I am trying not to mind the lovely face zits that are settling upon my face or the mad nose bleed that caused me to pull over on the expressway as blood gushed down my arm. Parting gifts...
Onto a new chapter, a new position and an office that I hope turns out like I could only dream.
To all my coworkers, you will be missed. I promise that as soon as we get this house together there is a BIG party to be had!! And yes, alcohol will be on the menu.
To new beginnings and the closing of a chapter.
~Kel
Tuesday, April 15, 2014
Letter to Teen Mom 2- Girls...
This is my letter to the Teen Mom 2 girls.
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I would then like to say that I have watched not only Teen Mom 2, but all of you in 16 & Pregnant. I almost feel like I have been on walked along side each of you on your journey. I do not agree with *everyone's' choices, but feel that the show has brought to life the consequences of getting pregnant before you are ready. Each of your stories are inspiring and I hope will help me be a better parent when it comes to discussing sex and babies with my own girls.
OK, on with it already Kel!
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My Letter to Chelsea
I have watched you grow up girl! I mean, thinking back to you in your episode of 16 & Pregnant, I remember scratching my head, thinking to myself that this poor girl has no idea what kind of ways her life is about to be turned upside down. Adam was a jerk then, he is a jerk now, and unfortunately for him, he will probably always be a jerk. OK, not to totally bash Adam. I love watching you grow, you are a Great Mom! Do not ever let anyone tell you different! I am glad, (you are NOT going to want to hear this) that Adam is finally trying to be a part of Aubrey's Life. Unfortunately, this journey has been recorded and she will see that it is only when he is expecting a new baby that he steps up for Aubs. But, I think that being a Daddy's girl myself, it is important for a girl to have her Dad. Even if he is a hot mess. The best decisions you made were moving on from the toxicity that is Adam. You are a devoted Mom and it has been a joy to watch you blossom into the person you have become. Keep striving for those stars and don't give up. The kicker is when you were going to change Aubrey's name on the Birth Certificate because Adam was such a nasty person, kind of wish you had. I can totally feel your insecurities when it comes to not being with her and I think it is sad that Adam doesn't get that. I think that he can't relate because he has always been a piece of her life, not a part. Hang in there. You will be a better parent for sharing custody, even when you want to be selfish (I would too) but for Aubrey, and for her growth. I think that if anything, when he is with her he does love her and she will make HIM a better person. (Ironic, isn't it!)
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My Letter to Kail
You have been busy girl! I think that you are a wonderful Mom. You are NOT your Mother, not even close. All I ask of you is to cut Javi some slack. He is a good one and deserves all your love and attention. I totally understand that editing happens, but you always seem so cold towards him. He is a stand up guy and you are so lucky to have found him.
You were a beautiful bride. Your ceremony brought tears to my eyes and I thought that it was a new start for you both and so romantic. I love that you are also having a civil relationship with Joe. Just remember, Joe is a GREAT Dad, you are so lucky! Don't discredit him. He has been the best Teen Dad ever and deserves that credit because a lot of the Teen Dad's kind of distances themselves and he has fought for Isaac as much as you have. You are both great Parents and I love that Javi and Him are also trying to build a civil relationship. It says a lot about you guys and your Co-Parenting. Now, onto Vi, give her a chance. She is great with Isaac and you found happiness, let Joe find it too! It will be better for Isaac in the long run.
My last words are, keep doing what your doing. You have grown so much and have turned into a good person, Kail. I just wish you would let your guard down a little and warm up a smidge! ;)
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My Letter to Jenelle
Oh girl..I do not want to bash you, you get it enough from Barbara and your fans, but I just wish you loved yourself! You need to start with YOU, work your way to Jace and then, maybe, just maybe, you can find love elsewhere.
Bi-Polar disorder is tough and I am proud of you for putting yourself out there, letting the world see how the disease affects you. I do not personally suffer, but I do have a Mother and Brother who battle the disorder and I see the struggles both internal and external that they afflict. Stay strong, find the right medication and look at yourself in the mirror. You are a beautiful person with a huge heart. Give yourself some of that love from that heart and start there. You need to love you before you can let anyone else love you and the love you are getting is not the right kind.
As for Nathan, hopefully you have moved on. Although with a baby, I am sure there will always be a back and forth that will happen for now on. He is bad news. I saw right through his pretty boy face from the get. He might have his own money and all the flash, he inflicts anger in you and twists stuff to set you off. Any relationship like this is best to avoid.
As for Jace, don't leave him behind. Fight for him. I really haven't ever seen you fight for him and he is suffering. Stop being selfish and love you and love him. He is the only guy you need in your life. Parenting is tough and keeps you grounded at the same time. It is kind of amazing in that aspect and if you could worry about him more and being the best Mom your could be, you would improve your disorder and rid yourself of the depression.
Hang in there girl and next time I see you, I hope that you have Jace, new baby and are smiling and all about your babies. They deserve it!
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This one is the one that I needed to save for last. Leah, my heart aches for you in so many ways. You are a hands down Ah-Mazing Mother! I give you nothing but tons of credit for the life you have created. You are strong and caring and active and just amazing. So, let's talk Jeremy. OK, I am married and I have learned the meaning of being a "Godly Wife" and seriously, look into this (it is on my blog) - you need to pick you battles and stop nagging. My life is similar, minus the day travel. I do not see my Hubby a heck of a lot because of his crazy work schedule. How do I get through it? Texting. Whether he responds or not, I text. I also remember why he is working. It isn't for him, it isn't for stuff he wants to buy..nope it is for me and my girls. I do not lose sight of that because at the end of the day I ask myself, Does he want to be away from us, does he want to be working 10 hours days, six days a week? You need to stay rationale, no matter how hard it is.
You have your hands full. I totally get that! You just have to take the time you do have with Jeremy and love him. Put the fighting away. One thing that does bother me, and again.editing might be obscuring my vision, but he is very cold. You say that you love him and get a blank stare, no words back. I think that counseling would help break that, but only if he is willing and right now he seems very adamant that he is not interested. Maybe it is just lack of communication, or maybe it is just the nagging but you might need to push with more affection. I think that saying, Kill em' with kindness, would work in the affection department.
You are under a lot of stress, but you still deserve to be treated like a great wife. Do not lose sight of why you were married and do not throw in the towel at the first fight. If you meant your vows, do not give up. This is something I wish someone would have told you with your marriage to Cory. If you would have bought that stupid old pick up...you never let me drive... there would have been compromise and a home might have followed. If is water under the bridge and you can not go back, just move forward. You found Jeremy, now it is all about showing him your love and getting him to show you his!
As for you absolutely beautiful girls...Alleah is a normal 4 almost 5 year old. Her behavior is hands down, normal! I speak from experience, as my 5 yo exhibits the same rowdiness. My children are 2 years apart and completely different! Ali is so stinking adorable! You stay so strong for her and I swear it is keeping her thriving! I am still in shock about the results and just want to give you a huge hug. You and Cory handled the news better than I knew Hubby and I would have. It is a huge hurdle, but if anyone is going to get through it, it will be you.
I love the co-parenting that Cory and you are managing and although I personally, would love to have seen a happy ending between the two of you, I am happy with your life partner decisions and love the fact that you both talk regularly and work together. You have to for those girls and I love the Mom you are for always keeping that as your primary focus! I love your Momma too! She did/does good with you and you are so lucky to have her always by your side. She is open and honest and listens and that is something you truly need. I would never sit here and try to act like i know what your going through. I don't and I am so sorry you are going through this, but know that you and your girls have touch my heart. I know that you and Jeremy can gt through all these hurdles. Please just remember that marriage is work. It is not meant to be easy and understand where he is coming form. That being said, I hope that he can somehow understand where you are coming from and the things you deal with and hold up on your shoulders daily. Men don't ever seen to though.
Please hang in there, live for you girls, your family and never give up! Keep pushing Ali, she was put on this earth as an inspiration. She is truly a kind soul and when you put Alleah and her together, they were meant to do something big in this world!
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Monday, April 14, 2014
Monday Madness..I work at HOME!!!
What does WAHM mean?
WAHM to me is a Life Changer! I am so excited/proud to say that I am a WAHM, or for those of you who are thinking to yourself, a WHAT? I am a Work At Home Mom!
Friday, April 11, 2014
Fabulous Friday!!! - BIG NEWS!
It has been a week of GREATS for us!
Throwback Thursday...Let's think back to College Years...
Let's take a look back..to those years when you were starting college, or well into it and all the things you did, or didn't experience.
What are some of the life experiences that you were able to take under your wing and embrace?
What were some life experiences that you avoided? Do you have any regrets?
Wednesday, April 9, 2014
Wacky Wednesday..Real World Explosion RECAP!
It's Wacky Wednesday!
Let's talk Real World...Explosion!
It has come to an end and boy was it ever engaging! I miss it already, as the last episode was on Monday where the gang all got back together for a "tell all" that proved to be full of surprises!
Did you watch the season?
Arielle Scott-
On a journey to do the right thing, Cory complicated his life with multiple women and his inability to express himself. Previously a football star, he lost his athletic scholarship due to a pregnancy scare with a girl he was dating. He later discovered that the story was a complete hoax, which led him to leave school just a year before graduation. Cory has dated his ex-girlfriend back home, Lauren, on and off since seventh grade. Their stormy relationship has resulted in ongoing issues with cheating, jealousy, explosive tempers, and crazy arguments. Cory was less than thrilled to find out his ex was joining him this season on the Real World, since he'd already started a "friends with benefits" relationship with roommate Jenny. Will Cory make up with his ex and form a friendship or more with her? Or does he find himself so attracted to Jenny that he wants to let Lauren go?
Jamie is originally from Pflugerville, Texas, which she describes as "a mix of country and ghetto." This tattooed hottie is a troublemaker willing to confront any issue head on, which sparks an early feud with roommate Ashley. Jamie is not shy about expressing her sexuality, and her desires are met when she starts a relationship up with roommate Thomas. As they try to keep their sexual relationship a secret from the roommates, Jamie and Thomas continue to fight about their status. Will Jamie's attitude toward life keep her from finding love? And once Hailey starts making a play for Thomas, will Jamie back down or fight back?
The Infamous- Ashley...Mitchell-
This pageant queen beauty is a force to reckoned with -- her stunning looks and tough personality are all she needs to get the attention that she craves from her numerous male friends. A San Francisco transplant originally from West Virginia, Ashley's bubbly personality and her connection to all of the late-night hot spots are initially welcomed by the roommates. But eventually she clashes with a few of them (especially Jamie) as they began to question who Ashley really is. Will the roommates give this party girl another chance or leave her floating off into the San Francisco sunset?
And the PLOT Thickens... by adding the Ex's- after Jenny and Cory started "hooking up" and Jamie and Thomas were starting a relationship!
Ashley Ceasar (Arielle's Ex)
Madly in love with Arielle, Ashley's main reason for moving into the Real World house is to give her relationship with Arielle another try. Arielle and Ashley broke up numerous times due to dishonesty and betrayals that Ashley could no longer deal with. Despite their rocky relationship history, this Bay Area native wants to settle down with her ex in hopes of eventually getting married. Once Ashley moves into the house will she get the commitment she been waiting for?
Brian Williams, Jr. (Jenny's Ex)
Hailey Chivers (Thomas's Ex)
Ashley and Arielle are still together. They both live apart but are rocking at their relationship..which is awesome to hear.
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