Fuming Friday....What do you do with a B A D Friday?

Its Friday... I should be jumping up and down, screaming, happy as can be, right? Instead, I am fuming. I am depressed.  I am on the verge of tears. 

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Today has been less than what I expected. Work is the culprit. Darn you, Work.  I was supposed to leave on a happy note. It was jeans week after all. Instead, I get this cryptic email from my boss, with a little too much sassy pants and an underlined note that has me less than thrilled. I am just trying to go my job to the best of my ability and it is ridiculous that she is going to question my motives, like I did something wrong.  She wasn't the first today though, it started from a Supervisor under her demanding my emails ensuring that I sent documentation where it needed to be due to having been a second request and still not showing in the imaging software. Really! It is just frustrating as all get out. 

Then there is the constant reminders that my head is on the chopping block from, everyone, in the office. Makes me feel wonderful, let me tell you.  I wish if they were going to fire me, they would get on with it already. I am tired of giving them 150% to feel so unappreciated each and every day. 

It sucks because moral is terrible. Communication is even worse. I am so busy and strapped to my desk each day that I don't even have time to figure out a way to boost either within the department. The funny thing is, I have been boasting about the demands of the job and the exceedingly endless workload and it falls upon deaf ears. 

Yesterday I had to leave early, due to having a sick kid, and I get a song and dance act from the boss. I never take time off, especially for my kid, but with a temp at 102*, I am a Mom in that instant, first! That put a sour taste in my mouth. It wasn't even like I was taking off, leaving all my work, I completed all my work and used time that I have earned after five long years of employment. 

Oh well. I need to "let it go" and move on. Just very bothered. 

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Then, to top it all off, my sick kid, who I took to the doctor's yesterday morning, was prescribed an antibiotic, is still under the weather, with a temp sticking at 100*. As a Mom, I am so bothered, stressed and miserable by this fact. That is my baby, after all. 

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On the way home from a day with her Papa, all she wanted (and has for three days  now) is McDonald's. So, of course, this Mom stopped! I even picked something up for Hubby. We got home, the girls ate (and did a fine job indeed!) and I woke Hubby up. I went back downstairs, he sat up after all, and noticed our Sick Kid's antibiotic sitting on the counter.  Said Antibiotic was to be refrigerated, from which Hubby got it from in the first place. I had specific instructions from the pharmacist about this! Needless to say, last straw for my temper and I yelled! 

Who comes down but Hubby- asking what my problem was, I tell him (as I am dialing the Pharmacy) that he left the antibiotic out of the fridge and my tone was not nice at all.  He stomps back up the stairs and slams our bedroom door. 

I eat by myself. (a fact that has me pissed because I always eat by myself!) 

Finally, it is time for him to leave, and I have NOT seen him at all, nor have our children. He says nothing to me. He says his goodbyes to the girls, tell me he has to leave, to have a good night and gives me a peck. I was moping! Jerk.  Sorry, but I had a bad day and then he completely ignores me, doesn't even have a minute for me or asks me what is going on. Burns my britches is what it does. And I had to give the stinky dog a dang bath.. grrr..

Now, my kid if really feeling bad. I got her tucked into bed but her coughing is keeping her up. Darn you sickness- go away and take this god forsaken snow with you!  My little one is up and Adam and so tired that I think she missed her mark for sleep!  It is going to be a LONG night. 

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I need UV's.. I have had enough. The saddest thing is that I completed my first copy write project today and its DAMN good- if i may say so myself! I am so over the moon, proud of myself! I can/will do this and I will be great at it!

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Now, to cure my stress... I know a good stress reliever, but I don't know if Hubby will be on board since he is so stressed out himself and not letting me in to work as a team. I hate feeling so alone in the world and so disconnected. It really affects me in a negative way. 

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Solution: WORK AT HOME- God, our lives would be so much better. It would benefit myself and him in so many ways and help our relationship at the same time. I think it is more than the right time to make this happen. 

I know God has put this opportunity in my lap and keeps me nestled in the right direction. I just keep staying dedicated and putting my best foot forward to learn the materials and strive to do my best! I have to do this, for my family and for me. 

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 Now, I MUST unwind.  Let out my steam and move on with the rest of my evening. Chocolate and my DVR are happening!  

Until Tommorrow, for Tomorrow is another day..



Kel~

Throwback...Thursday... --going way back to 2003...

2013- in my eyes...

Take yourself a step back in time.. The year is 2003... what where you doing and why?  How were you doing it and why is it so significant that when you think of the year, it takes you back there?

 

The year is 2013, I am 23 years old.  (you don't have to be a rocket scientist to figure it out) I am attending the University in my area Full time, in my last semester, Ever!

I am panicking a little, trying to make sure I have all my ducks in a row.  I went shopping with my Mom to find my graduation dress.  It is red, goes to my knees with a little ruffle hem and a floral pattern all around. 

I know the date is: May 10th and it is Graduation Day! and I am nervous!  I am all dressed, ready to go.  I am waiting on my family to arrive, before we head to the ceremony. I really did NOT want to walk, but my Grandpa, who has terminal lung cancer, is here and wants to see me do this.  This is important to him, so therefore, it is important to me. 

My Boyfriend is here also.  (Yes, this is my Hubby today) and we all head to the ceremony, he drives me and him, while my family follows. My gown is on, my cap is in my lap.  Reality is my worst enemy, as I am getting more and more nervous, the closer we get. 

At last, we arrive.

Ready or not, I, somehow, find my place. (These moments are kind of a blur)

I see a few people that I have met along my journey. I line up, nerves full blown. I sit and wait. Trying to not fall asleep. I am surrounded by strangers.  At last, my name is called.  I walk acrossed the stage, smiling, not tripping, remembering to grab with this hand, shake with the other.  

I did it!

[below: Graduation Day- 2003  - Me getting a Citizen Watch! What time is it?]

Wacky...Wednesday. Wait, did somebody say...H U M P Day.....

Wacky Wednesday - - -  2/19/2014

*Please note that I have a visitor today... a Curious, Can't keep her hands off everything on my Desk- 2 1/2 Year Old. 

 I wanted to have a little fun today, since it is Wednesday and a pretty wacky one at that!

I get a phone call first thing this morning that my Hubby got stuck on his way taking our kids to my Parents house for the day.  There were some issues on his commute and he cut down a side street and the snow proved to be, yet another, obstacle!

He, obviously, wasn't having a great day...

Our weather is rather crazy too!  It actually got up to 41* today- which is a huge difference from the sub-zero crap that we have been dealing with!  Let the great THAW begin!

So, I came acrossed some random facts that YOU might not know.. bet you wanna though, don't ya!  Well, lets check it out... Ready...

#1 )  Did you know that if you mix up a Captain and Diet Coke you will get more Drunk, than with that regular Coke?
#2) If you love chocolate, yes, me!  If you eat that Chocolate Cake you love...for Breakfast, you will lose weight.  - crazy huh!

[is your mind blown yet? Were just getting started!]

#3)  Have hiccups?  If you have an Orgasm, Hiccups are instantly cured!  (right on!)
#4)  Eating Pizza once a week helps to reduce your risk of esophageal cancer.
#5)  The average male will ejaculate about 7,200 times during his life. (Glad I am glad I am a girl)
#6)  If you are in total darkness for more than 3 days, you can become permanently blind.
#7)  Approximately 80% of a child's intelligence is acquired from the Mother.
#8)  Glycoprotein and selenium is found in human semen which helps reduce breast cancer in women by almost 50%.
#9)  Keeping cats can increase chances of developing mental illnesses and cause suicidal behavior in women.
and, finally,
#10)  The Bible is the MOST shoplifted book of all time.

I know, I know, you are all speechless, right!  I was really trying to keep my inappropriate comments to myself but some of that is interesting, right!  I mean, who knew Sperm could help reduce breast cancer.  I am tucking that little tidbit away, and thanking God I have a Hubby.  I love pizza, and it benefits me too, win-win!

 I have come to find out that I love the randomness of Wednesdays, and getting my Blog organized- took me long enough, right!

On a random rant, I also am dealing with a sick five year old.  She has had this terrible cough for a few days, yesterday it was hurting her chest and today it is still the same but she is also feverish.  She had a fever this morning, then nothing.  Tonight she had another fever, 102*, then back down to 100*.  On top of it all, she won't eat and is whiny as all get out.  She has been resting all day and even wanted to go to bed at 6:30 p.m.   A record for her- and yes, I am recording this on the blog- hopefully you read this one of these days, Ms. Five YO- this is crazy.  I feel so bad and she has a doctor's appointment tomorrow that her Dad is taking her too.  I just hope she gets better.  Breaks my heart.

Ok, off of my randomness that no-one cares about!  (Hey, I am writing this blog to be able to show my kids one of these day... maybe.. :)

Well, that is all for tonight..  Happy Wacky Wednesday, or as Ms. Five Year Old says....

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Book Review Tuesday....

Book Review Tuesday

Book Title:   Release Me by J. Kenner  (Stark Trilogy)

Ok, this is where my Hubby is like, "What ya reading?"  and I'm like.. "A Book."  He instantly knows it's Christian Gray -like.  His term is, "Another Smut Book."  Which I usually laugh, because these books benefit him too.  Then I get the lecture about Magazines vs. Books and my argument is- PICTURES, hello!  His argument is, no faces, just actions. RIGHT... Men..  

Anyways, I loved Christian Gray.  I loved ...loved... loved Gideon Cross. (He was my fav in Sylvia Day's Crossfire Series)  and my Friend told me about the Stark Trilogy- which she said was her fav.  So I dived in, months ago!  I just picked it back up (because reading IS important) and finished the entire book in 2 days. (kind of slow for me)  It was good.  It was a little played out with the other trilogies and all, but I dove into book 2- so something new is there.  I really like the Characters.  I like the story line- although I do find some things where I am like- Ok, not really reality.  I mean, geez how many Millionaire Hotties are there in this world? But all in all, it was a hook, line and sinker. 

Characters:  You have Damian Stark -Mr. Hottie Millionaire.  He is broken.  Then you have Nikki, ex-pageant beauty with cutting issues and a bunch of skeletons from her past.  They come together and reading their story unfold is a little far-fetched at times, but all in all, it works. 

By NO means is this a Favorite.  As I mentioned above, Gideon and Eva are my favorite characters of them all.  The story is compelling and I literally read all three books in one weekend.  
Fifty Shades was much of the same.  I really connected to the story line. I would actually say that I loved the story more than the sex and that would be honest.  The story was amazing and how it all came together was brilliant. 
This series, not so much the same.  There is a lot of sex, which I don't mind, but the story is not moving as fast as the other two series.  I don't want to knock it to bad because in all fairness, if I hadn't read exhibit A and B before this, it probably would have been good.  But, by comparison, it just isn't creating any new ideas in my head. 

I am reading book 2- hope to have that completed by next Tuesday, to share my thoughts.  Book one was kind of drawn out, but book 2 does seem to be moving a bit faster!

More details to come..

Snow Day Tuesday...Again...

It seems like every "other" Tuesday has been a SNOW DAY around here.  We got 4 1/2" last night on top of our already insane amount from the previous snow falls.  It is crazy and supposed to warm up so much that now flooding will be an issue by the weekend. (oh frickin joy!)

On top of that, we are having propane supply and demand issues in our area and with the bitter colds we have been getting- that has been tons of fun coming from the newbies on the block who were city folks!!

But, when Hubby got home and said that the roads were BAD, I knew it had to be, because he never says that!  I made a judgement call and stayed home.  Sucks because I had to use a day- but it was accident alley on the expressways- which is my commute! Instead, I traded a day at the office, for a Mommy Day! It was rather enjoyable too!  I got to sleep in a bit, my girls were pretty mellow and we had a really good day!  It probably was a blessing in desguise also, because my big one is a bit under the weather so she got lots of lovins and extra care. (I think she needed them anyways)

So now, I really, really want to get giong with my freelance business so that I can do this, I can be this kind of Mom.  My big one starts Kindergarten this year and I know it will kill me to not be a part of that experience. I want to be a PTA Mom, Room Mother, and all those things.  I want to be a part of Girl Scouts and any sports she chooses or dance, or whatever!  I NEED TO MAKE THIS HAPPEN! (from Dream to Reality I WILL make this happen!)

But, here is a snippet of my day:

 

 Us, Girls, being GOOFY!

Enjoy Ya'll!

Kel~~

Marriage..Monday

Today I wanted to focus on a topic that I have been discussing in previous posts, Marriage.

I really want to help everyone find their path to a happy marriage, while on my own journey.

Today, I have 5 questions/challenges for us all to do over the next 7 days...

1) Ask you Hubby what you can help him with today.  - it can be something as simple as helping him get his stuff ready for work.  I asked him how I could help him and he smiled and asked if I could make him a sandwich. Sometimes it is just those little things that can make the difference.

2) Go all day without correcting your Hubby.  - easier said than done for some of us. I know that this is tough when it comes to parenting, due to our completly different styles.  It is amazing how it helps us be on the same team when I am backing him instead of correcting him or why our kid is going what she is doing.

3) Three times a day give your Hubby a HUG. - simple enough right - but if you reflect on your day, do you do this?  We are really big huggers in our home.  You get a hug when you wake up, you get a hug before you leave for the day, you might just get a hug for making a sandwich!

4)  Give your Hubby a kiss the first time you see him in the morning. - this is something I guess we never raelly gave much thought about. Sometimes we kiss right away, sometimes it isnt until later in the day.  Something I will admit, I didn't ever pay to much attention to.  This is another "little thing" that can go so far.

5) Remind yourself that he loves his family and is doing his best for us. - I personally think this is important.  Our situation has changed so much in the past year with Hubby working the crazy hours he is working.  It has been a huge adjustment for him and for us.  I miss him like crazy and it has been hard on me, being, basically, a single parent at night. I get down, feel disconnected from him and lonely but it truly helps to put our situation in perspective.  He has to work.  He is working, not for himself, not for me, but for our family, to ensure that we have what we need and more, to ensure that we are living comfortably and well.  To make sure that we have everything we could dream.  He is going what is best for us, as a family because he loves us.

These little tips help our marriage.  They are little, and the things that sometimes we forget in Marriage, in everyday life.  It gets crazy, mine is no different, but this helps all of us remember why we were married in the first place.  It helps us connect, which is so important in any relationship.

I married my best friend and doing these little things helps me to feel less lonely and gives me something to look forward to in my day or remember when my day is done.

I hope it helps you to.

Minor...disruption..

Life is always smacking you in the face with unexpected things, or so it seems my life is!  Yesterday I took a Blogger Hiatis.. I should say a Much Needed Blogger Hiatis.  I just got done with a 30 day challenge, after all!  Oh and, well, Walking Dead was on last night and Hubby was home..so much needed, much needed, couple time! Happy Frickin' Valentine's Weekend to us- Holla.

But today it is back to the grind.  Gosh, I hate Mondays!  I am sooo ready to start my freelance writing career.  Hard to stay patient at this point.  I am still trying to articulate the meat of the course and keep reading ahead to get an idea but I can't wait.  I am scared and anxious all at the same time.

Then, I look out my window and see more white stuff hitting my already heavily covered ground.  I really don't think it is ever going to stop at this point.  I guess, we are supposed to be getting the worst blast yet. That is insane because right now, we are #2 in the country with snowfall records this year- say What?  Snow, Snow, go away!  Mother Nature take a Midol already, would ya?  And here is the kicker- it is supposed* to be in the 50's by Friday.  It is going to feel like summer, ya know what I mean... It was literally -2 this morning when I left for work- going from that- to near 50.  I just want it to be 100* and I promise, no bitching. I would be one happy camper.

But, anyways, so did you catch that Walking Dead last night?  I hate it, when you have a TV Show that you love and have to now wait until next week.  I love The Originals and they weren't even on last week so I am on withdraws here!